Do you understand her now?

As happy as a lark, with vibrant hues of joy that spread effortlessly, her energy never seemed to cease! Of course she was loved for her optimism, why, the cup was always half full (and drinkable). Although an introvert, she took pride in giving and putting others before herself. Such beauty, yet why did she have second thoughts of being happy herself? Try as hard as you might, but can you fully understand her? 

As she bade her friends goodbye, her heart sank, just like how the captain was reluctant to release the anchor to end the maiden journey. She stood outside the door and hesitated for a moment before fumbling around her trusty leather bag for her keys. A sigh was usually what she used to greet the house first thing every time she got home. This time was no exception. It was just a matter of how many steps it took her before the struggle starts. The struggle to remain calm, peaceful at heart and retreat in silence. Do you understand her? I doubt so. 

The countless times the words "hopeless" and "useless" were thrown at her coupled with rage inducing screams almost daily were more than enough to drive her up the wall. Nobody would listen, while she struggled to keep her head. Do you understand her now?

It was a live or die game. She was strong and desired attention. However, "attention-seeker" was absolutely not what she wanted to be labelled as. She needed to prove herself. Every little thing she did was a tussle - any trouble caused would mean being a burden. Now, a girl yearning to be independent would not want that, would she? Like any other teenager, she wanted someone to care for her. It is a nice feeling to be thought of, isn't it? However, they thought she was damn fine on her own. Damn right they were, because she will only learn how to be more strong-willed and quick-witted. Do you fully understand her longings now? You should be.

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I know my posts have been infrequent and maybe even boring. They have been sad and quite emotional, but please understand that I will only post what I have put effort in and what I have poured out a great deal of my own emotions in. This is because I realised works that are not inspired by events or people that trigger my emotions often come out as crap and are always deleted. Thus, if there are no posts for quite some time... you can try stirring my inner self up a bit or give me something to think about through twitter/ask.fm! Also, all my posts are 100% inspired from my experiences so I really appreciate it most if you take time to relate to them or try and understand why I do the things I do. Looking forward to posting more for you readers. Till then, be nice to everyone :-)

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